The Illusion of Change After the Breaking Point
Do you know those moments after a big fight or crisis,
when the person who disappointed you starts treating you like nothing ever happened?
Those moments when you thought the world had learned something about you —
understood that it must change its ways toward you —
only to realize it was all just a performance.
Everything suddenly feels like someone is telling you
exactly what you want to hear
just so you’ll stop being an obstacle in their life.
The Longing to Stop Pretending
My true longing is for a day when we no longer pretend.
When we’ll stand face to face and say clearly:
You are an obstacle.
An obstacle because you exist,
and your existence is tied to mine.
And sometimes, I wish you didn’t exist —
not that you would cease to exist,
but that you had never existed in the first place.
That I could erase your memory.
And so, I wish to erase my life,
because my life is not a life without you.
A Fracture Too Deep for Reason
The internal fracture is greater than hope.
And I don’t believe it can be bridged —
not by rational means.
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